i'm laying in my bed in the dark with the fan on listening to jens lekman. i went to the stone zoo today with dory and kelsey, we saw bears and flamingos and ate ice cream. i can't stop thinking about being somewhere else. i've been selling my things online non-stop, if i could, i would give it all away. i miss bike rides with lauren, oklahoma needs to let her come back to andover. not looking forward to spending 12 hours at the hospital tomorrow. i'm excited to visit phoebe in maine, even though it is a long time away, i think that dory is going to come too. i want it to rain right now and i want to be in a place that i want to be in, not one that i settle for.