relax and stop worrying please. paranoia/pointless jealousy never got anyone anywhere. look on the bright side. there are too many positives right now to focus on the little negatives. i don't want to become that person. selfish and self-obsessed and needy.

in other news, beautiful things are lacking in my life. let's go take some pictures. sunday in amherst? okay.

welcome, ghosts.

i must endure approximately 18 hours of french class and then i am done forever. wow i can't wait. i think that i want to move to los angeles and play other people's music to strangers in clubs and watch them dance. i think that i would like that. i need to learn how to dj for real though not just sit hunched over my computer making playlists with justice and uffie and men who dress like robots. my back hurts from doing this and i need to learn how to ride a bike again or maybe acquire some leg/body strength. i think that i need to start photographing people again. i want a wall in a room where i will live one day to be covered in photographs of many different things because i like to look at them and remember the day that i took them and who i talked to and where i was. and right about now i wish that i was sitting on top of a mountain, but one that has grass, so maybe just a big hill, somewhere in norway or iceland looking at fjords even though i don't know what they are but i like the way the word sounds. and i could just listen to the wind howling and i would be wearing a sweater and it would have animals knitted into it and i could feel so small next to things that are so big.

smith college, you are quite the place to be and all i want to do is dance.